We learned to sing “Rau Rak Kan”

I lost touch of myself. For a while at least.

Thus.. ....

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My darling AK has been renamed AKA also as Thi-Rak AK!

Cheerie. nice

Thi-Rak = Darling.

We learned that last evening.

Last evening over at the Thai class, it was simply too confusing already.

Not the writing , but the spoken thai.
The pronounication, hilariously a little but difficult but we will try.
Try our best to brush our chinese accent to thai accent, practice makes perfect.

At the lesson else again, we learnt to sing a thai song. At least, we learnt to TRY to sing a thai song. Not successfully well sung by us.
I think the Kru gave up.

“Rau Rak Kan”

I’m Feeling: mellow

I'm missing my chinese food already..

As i was telling the AK,
i could smell chinese food everywhere
its another weird thing!
yesterday i thought i could got the aroma of "chao tao kuay"
and just now in the training room

i thought i smell of "ginger black sauce tender chicken wings"..

Gaga

Maybe someone here was ACTUALLY having it..
hemmm

I’m Feeling: Greedy already

My Coming weekend looks dreadful

And it’s the Friday towards a cool weekend, that I ain’t really looking forward!
Anyhow, ideally, it had to be, so!

The AK made tons of plans for these 2 days, fun marketing makan and more fun together.
Seems fun,
But my next week seems super boring to me!
Sigh!
Still!

Maybe its that, that last evening over at 156, I thought it was funner to chit-chaty when some aunty joined us and began to talk louder and louder at her sharperest VOICE you could ever imagine.
I left 156 before my ears could take it and irritatiness grew more.

That’s me, after a GOOD RUIN to a platonic type of aunty niece-cy friendship for months, I wonder how long it takes for the ice to break again.
Maybe in the near future,
Maybe never
Maybe it could

For the moment, as the voice grew louder at the table, I feel an intense urge to rush home!
the truth!

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Back to work

Im alone in the office room today, so alone. The sky is turning slowly grey to dark blue.. traffic is so quiet I could see.
Nothing exciting around in Singapore sky, except the F1 formulae.

The whole area is combed by fence, high tall fences that made you feel like you in prison, when you passed by, suffocated.

And yeah, the view I viewing could catch a few speed seconds of the F1 formulae, also if you view it in the stand, it’s also a few seconds of the speed motor!

And
Its back to WORK!

I’m Feeling: Indifference but alright

Making A Difference

The blue Ribbon,

A true story of the Blue Ribbon., imagine, i had a plague of tears of the blue ribbon after watching this.

pause II to download before viewing the entire youtube..

it doesn't hurt to tell isn't it

for every bad point of someone, there is always something good,'

for us, we are not in perfection.

the simple meal

Nothing exciting or out of the extraordinary happened last evening. We had our simple dinner tabao yet very delicious meal and watched the television daily programmes as usual.
One or 2 hours over at 156 after that, calm peaceful relaxing, just right for a work week relaxing after work time.

Waking up in the Morning

Then I was walking along the raffles place and thinking of the nearest holiday to come other than this Monday and darn, not until a August.

“”
Then you trying to catch 5 more mins sleep after the alarm when snoozing off when the snoopy starts to tap your shoulder until you wake! “”

The little things our loved ones does

While the AK woke up and went for his morning drink,

I was just about the bed and around the typer thinking what could be the frustration…
What could be simply vexing that seemed so huge that God cannot solved it. Why could a simply irriating person could outdo myself yet ......

Then I would say, God cheered me by
I see:
- Benji’s photo at the bed of the vet’s clinic
- the AK’s childish-like to suit me imitating my toy
- my Daddy going 156 for a drinking session with me
- Mummy’s unselfishness to give
- Benji’s extradionary behaviour apart from all the normal quiet doggies
- The AK’s fat fingers pointing at the Bible verses
- My daddy’s gnawing his teeth.. cutely
- Mummy’s trying to give us food before herself
- Benji’s head opening the toilet door
- Nikki’s afraid of the camera
- Daddy trying to get the latest gadget for my room
- The AK’s waiting for me working late nights…

I would think to point every points would be endless… to this post,,,,

What would I be frus? Think of the lovely sweet positive points that the loved ones had showered on me.. that surrounded me , more enough to supersede the negative frustrations I had,… nothing that not even 1 grand could buy.


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The pair of Pcssss are back!

Yeap they are really back!
Ok today I learnt super something about the settings of the internet, the inner side which I always thought I knew enough, but it ain’t.
Everyday, there is something new to learn and I just did.

Amazingly, the both computers worked for the Dad and me.

While small matters like these perked me up, nevertheless, it was back to reality which I was having a full mind about. … looks like a dead end to me for now, only the Almighty could break the barrier…

Seriously, I didn’t see anything I can do in Podcast? What does it exactly provide? News and tvs, advers on the already shown channels?
Probably I didn’t catch the gees of it yet… still, not appetizing!

My On guard Senses

Im full of zest, its like an anticipation of a great happening and the zest is full of hyper energy, but the thing is, I don’t know what the zest is about.
Just a suddenly outburst of zest an optimistic zest, but for the moment, because the mood of mine changes suddenly.

Or when a bad omen or unpleasant moment is about to happen, the happy zest is always surrounding me initially, so it's the warning. Always, I feel so good, so loved so optimistic of life and matters, and constantly, it turned out the opposite, I would droop down like a roller coaster ride. The mood would fall into despair and unpleasant matters would unroll towards me….

I don’t know, but its always the case, when I fell full of love or in this instance, this outburst of hyperness, the later would always prove wrong… 6 sense or what huh....

So having this feeling is scary for me..
ON GUARD!

Short post first

Its cool to have a coke in the early morning especially half a can when like carol get to share with you today.. and its cool especially when you feel totally out of space and dehydrated!

Nice.

Lots of twirling thoughts shooting through the mind, the thing is getting the right post into place..

Till such times, the work is over whelming, to start even a simple post.

It's the post renewal!

Yawn

its total exhausation

Moving forward unwanted friendship

The senseless friendship of the world, no one can comprehend, the weight and sincerely, of the heart, is one our naked eyes cannot see, nor sometimes feel. If families can even sway, why not our non-blood related friendship?

Sometimes its better to move forward and not remember and think about “why this” and “why that's’

It really pricks my heart when the unthinkable friendship happens, and it happens to you when you were least expected.

Like the bible says,. The thief comes to steal when the family is sleeping, when we are the most off-guard…

Is life all about struggling and fighting?

And then you think about all your good friends around!!!
Your parents and your loved one surrounding you all the time.. they are all whom been there beside you encouraging and loving you all the time,….. and it boast my morale and life up-times-more than the sorrow of a lousy friendship.

There so much in life to look forward to than to be moralized by some that does not need you!

And HE tends to smoothe and warm my heart many times….

Finally ..

Its quiet and peaceful out here just for a few errands to run occasionally the whole day, but its alright..

And I grew tired.. seems all drained at the turning point moment suddenly.

Thought what should I end the day with?
How should I end it?
Its really disheartening and tiring to start on a bad note…

The warmth we need at times

HE said physical man always fails, physical man also bring forth hurts and pain towards the others, physical man betrays us killing us, be it our family or not.
So why not we looked to the ONE who is never failing, WHOM we can laid our trust our secerts and our heartmost feelings upon, to WHOM, we know our comfort is assured.
Where our strength and our hurts HE hears without passing to someone else.

You know HE is there, when at your most lonesome times, at your most hurtful despair moments, where there seems no way, you feel a warmth that surrounds your heart, so warmth and comforting, the warm tears seems to trickle down the cheeks..

For HE will deal with those hurts, with the injustice, in His time.. what I needed was the warmth in my heart and ..... I felt it today.

evidently, The Lord's comfort... warmth and teary

the Words

Disheartening =

Intimidating
Unapproachable
Distant
Discouraging
Demoralizing

The great moto sets in!

when night Falls and ...

reading the updates in Facebook especiall the AK and Yeng's adopted pet's tickled me quickly.

buay tahan.


why is it, people as in people always and darn, its always take people for granted. is this the phase always ? i guess so. is the nature of a human being isn't it..

when you can't get it, you opt, fight and try you best to reach it, even how busy and tight you are.

but when you have it in your possession, sometimes, you say hurtful things to them, you ignore them and sometimes, feel irritated even at the sound of them.

" Let the one that has NO sin throw the stone at this POSITUTE..."" the Lord says...

this, nobody, noone can ever picked up a stone to be sure, for me, for everybody, we are all in some aspect guilty of that..
Definately.!!.. still. .. it became a thought, a wonder at the extend of how a human being can stretched it to!

isn't life such? friends, lovers, family, couples ...?

then, there is a certain moment, in your point in life, in ourpoint in life, where we feel, is the most hopeless, most totally destroyed point of time, where nothing ever seems to help and pull through, yet when you looked back through, it seems like a movie in the past. pulling through it, being and learning from what you thought it was the end of the life of yours.

i always sentimental moods in the middle of the evening or night...

the night runs quickly,
with the morning to cover,
with the noon to unfold us in a strong man
,to be unfold quickly as the night drops in,
where our energy lowers,
and our sentimentals sets in..

HEY ! jasmine msg me... ..

My Hates

I hate being reserve I feel hot, empty and moody.

I hate being not myself and I hate myself when have lost my moods,

I hate when I lost my moods to talk and be happy and merry with people.
I hate when I am like that, and made me drift to emptiness, sadness and ultimately depression.
I hate when I want to jump with joy and be chirpy with people but I get restrain by occurrences.. making me super-paranoid.
I hate when I start to doubt about people and lose my attention with them.
I hate when I doubt people a little and start to drift away from them.

I hate myself from drifting and letting myself drift like that and start to stay away emotionally..
I hate when things caused me to be like that.

And I hate when I can’t get out of it.

And I hate myself for this weakness, for its me…

Confusing Day

its terribiliii confusing today....... the whole wide day.. and while i am at it, its something i will remember today..........

MP3

Pen this down:-

The AK and me did a mp3 conversion from all the CDs on all the nice songs!













A total of 181 chinese/hokkien/Cantonese slow songs – max quota reached in 1 disc!

A total of 40 english songs – somemore to add ..

And we when super excited when the small battery speaker works on the mp3 disc man for our outing purposes!

We yapp in JOY!

We loved YOU!

And then one girl friend of mine is pretty upset over her appearance it seemed…

And when she pour the sorrows to me, i wished I was in the beauty parlour at that moment to help to beautify and make the best of her womanhood then… but I was helpless.

Helpless for speech, helpless in action, I seemed helpless…

I wish I had special powers then…

People say heart is the most powerful weapon, but still, in a human life, who doesn’t want to look good and be well liked and be pleased by oneself and the others..

Its always a consolation to say appearance doesn’t matter but come to reality, it actually does a lot before getting into internally..

Stupid right but its reality leh!

So, meanwhile without special powers and money..,,

I can only afford some listening consolation to my girlfriend….

You still have those who loved you… why bother about those who don’t????