My Hates

I hate being reserve I feel hot, empty and moody.

I hate being not myself and I hate myself when have lost my moods,

I hate when I lost my moods to talk and be happy and merry with people.
I hate when I am like that, and made me drift to emptiness, sadness and ultimately depression.
I hate when I want to jump with joy and be chirpy with people but I get restrain by occurrences.. making me super-paranoid.
I hate when I start to doubt about people and lose my attention with them.
I hate when I doubt people a little and start to drift away from them.

I hate myself from drifting and letting myself drift like that and start to stay away emotionally..
I hate when things caused me to be like that.

And I hate when I can’t get out of it.

And I hate myself for this weakness, for its me…